Lying in Bed

All i've been able to do today is lie in bed. it's been more than 3 weeks that i tell myself im going to see someone but i just dont have the energy so i rather stay home and slowly fade away..besides, i would never want to deal with mental hospital staff ever again.

Everytime i come home from school i cry. i eat and i cry. i watch tv and i cry.

If i wouldnt be such a chicken i would stop eating and lay in my bed till i somehow died but then thats kind of unrealistic. Maybe swallowing a bottle of windex should do the trick.

I cant take rejection anymore, i cant take people anymore, i cant take my pathetic indoor life anymore